My Struggle with Weight Loss…

The first time I remember being aware of the fact that I had weight to lose was in middle school. I didn’t have a lot to lose but I had enough that I was uncomfortable. I remember having a birthday party and all my girl friends were over. We started one of those games were you ask everyone random questions and weight was brought up. All the girls were between 100-120 pounds with the exception of me and one of my friends who came in at 135. We both refused to answer the question.

That’s when the crash dieting began. I did the typical high school diet of starving myself which never worked because I liked food too much. It always just ended in tears and a binge leading to more weight. This went on all through middle school and then high school. Following high school my mom suggested Weight Watchers. She knew I was miserable, she also knew the things she did as a kid fighting the same battle. Knowing a women at work who had luck with it, my mom figured she would rather see me sticking to a plan and eating rather than doing the typical crap all girls do.

Weight Watchers worked amazing for me. I had lost 35 pounds in 5 months without a day at the gym. It was insane. I was in my early 20’s weighing less than I did in middle school. I started working for a modeling agency out of Boston called Click. Due to their demands I eventually got down to 124lbs at 5’8″… then they told me to lose more because I “still have an ass”. How’d I respond? “F#$K you. This is how I was built”. I knew I was too thin, from the waist up I looked anorexic. Right then I decided I was done with modeling. My boyfriend at the time was so glad I could see that I looked unhealthy. He was afraid I wouldn’t know when to stop with the weight loss. I knew there was no winning the “ass” battle, it came down to genetics. Besides… since when was having no curves a good thing?

Modeling

I kept the weight I lost through Weight Watchers off for two years until my grandfather got sick. Along with some other life drama, I completely unraveled. Ben & Jerry became my two best friends.

Then there was 5 years on the road filming with GH/GHI eating 3 meals a day at restaurants, fast food places, gas stations and vending machines. I was a yo-yo for that entire run, gain, lose, gain, lose. The amazing part about being on TV? There were always comments from fans, “You look great!” when I was doing well to, “You have a huge ass” when I wasn’t doing so well. Let’s just say that didn’t help to stay on track. Unfortunately people forget you are human and they forget any/all manners they were raised with as soon as they jump on the internet.

While I was still on the road I decided I would try this new thing all my friends were talking about, Isagenix. Two protein shakes a day and one regular meal. I thought, “This has GOT to work while living on the road! I’ll only have to find one meal a day and it’ll be easy”. Not so much. Mixed into those 5 shake days are 2 days where you don’t eat ANYTHING. It’s called cleansing and they make it sound fantastic and easy. If you like food-it is hell. You will get hungry, you will get light headed, you will hate the world. lol

Not to mention, carrying containers of shake powder and a single serving blender all over the planet was far from easy. Think about going through customs too, not only do the containers look suspicious the TSA GO THROUGH IT. Common sense, I know why they have to take a sample of the powder to test it. I understood the need but I just found it gross since for me it was food. Occasionally I will still do a shake for breakfast if I am being lazy, however that’s as far as it goes.

My last attempt with a dieting system was suggested by one of my good friends. She had tried Nutri-System, lost weight with it and loved it. I figured, since I was no longer bouncing around the planet, why not give it a try. Besides the fact it is expensive, who the hell wants to eat nothing but frozen or dried out food? Then there are days you stray from the system. You end up with the stuff stock piled in your cabinets-especially if you get suckered into automatic shipment. The same was true for Isagenix… I could have opened my own store with all the extra product.

Now what am I doing? I am trying to figure out how to use real food to lose weight, be healthy, while not losing my mind. I am using protein shakes in between meals – not as a meal substitution – as a way to hold off hunger, nibbling and cravings. I’m hoping to hit my goal and learn something along the way that will actually help me keep the weight off and be healthy about doing it.

I know I am not the only one struggling!!! What works for you? What doesn’t? And what are your biggest struggles with weight loss/healthy living?

 

Kris Williams
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  • MattJ April 1, 2017 at 12:39 am Reply

    Kris, Thanks for your honesty, updates and for allowing an outlet for others. Support is great — especially from those with similar issues, goals and successes!

    75 lbs, 8 months

    Disclaimer: I’m not a nutritionist, nor do I believe anyone would ever be fooled in to thinking I am one. Spent most of my life doing the weight gain and not the loss.

    For me, it came down to that one ‘photo’. Family all around at some BBQ and I’m off to the side partially blocking myself with the group. The photo where you ask yourself, “Is that really what I look like? Is this how others see me?”

    I made up my mind to start losing weight. What I knew about myself is I had to do it one step at a time and this would be a marathon, not a sprint. Reducing daily calories and sticking with proteins and veggies over carbs. It is not always fun, but the results started to show. Of course, there are cheat days (I’m human too!) — but not excessive. Worked on eliminating one vise (soda, sugar, carbs..) at a time — never at once (too much pain and I would have given up). I track everything on a spreadsheet just to keep me on task. There are good days and bad ones, but the tracking allows me to see the trend and where I am going.

    I’ve learned to really savor great well-prepared food, in small portions. I take my time and enjoy what I’m eating. I have cravings, but I have lost the feeling that I’m ‘missing out’ on not eating something else (french fries or cookies).

    The issue I’m being presented with now is figuring out what the hell is meant by ‘maintain your weight’. My brain only knows only eat — don’t eat. I suppose this creates more options for more savory foods and some old cheats (Ben & Jerry’s, and breads — yes, please ). But, how much to eat, when and what are the new questions. For me, this is the new challenge.

    Maybe Ben Franklin got it right – “All things in moderation — including moderation.”

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 7:24 am Reply

      Hey Matt,

      I hear you!! It is funny-like anything else-you have to personally hit your “I’ve had enough” moment before any change can happen. I am in no way an expert on weight loss/fitness either… just sick of being on the losing end of “healthy”.

      Learning to enjoy your food is a challenge-I have noticed I will inhale things without really even tasting it! There are times I will use that as an excuse to NOT eat something… in other words-you eat this and ten minutes from now it’ll be like it never happened… so why eat it at all?

      Maintaining is tough… maybe stick to your plan so many days a week and allow yourself an extra cheat day or two? see how it goes from there?

  • Kevin J Mclaughlin April 1, 2017 at 9:39 pm Reply

    Good luck. Eating the right foods can make a big difference.

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 9:41 pm Reply

      Thanks, Kevin!! IT can make a huge difference… but why does it have to be such a giant pain in the ass?! 🙁

  • Matt April 1, 2017 at 9:40 pm Reply

    I have come to the realization that if I do not lose weight, I am heading to an early grave. So, I set some goals for myself this year. First was to quit smoking, I am proud to say I have not had a cigarette since January 1st. Second, 2 months after quitting smoking, start exercising more and try to drop 100 lbs within the year. I am not sure how well I will do on that, but I am only 34. I want to live well past 40, and losing weight will help make that happen.

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 9:44 pm Reply

      Hey Matt,

      That’s awesome on kicking smoking!! 100 pounds in a year is quite the goal! I have about… 35-40 pounds to lose. Such a pain! I went through a stretch of just not giving a shit once a camera was out of my face but now my weight and lack of health are getting to me. We’ll figure out it!!

      • Matt April 1, 2017 at 9:50 pm Reply

        Yeah, I quit cold turkey. No gum, no patch and no vape. Just stopped smoking. Feels good. And I know 100 is quite the goal, but I gotta do it. Good luck to you.

  • Courtney April 1, 2017 at 9:43 pm Reply

    I could have wrote your story! I was the same way in high school 135, got to 119 in my 20’s and my husband said I looked like skeletor! Funny thing is, no matter how small I got, still had a pooch which I hate . I’ve come to terms with the fact I’ll never have abs cause I love food too much but I do IIFYM and work out 2-3 days a week and I’m strong and losing weight. Honestly, I avoid full length mirrors cause they are my downfall if I do feel good and I avoid the scale!

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 9:49 pm Reply

      Hey Courtney…
      lol, Skeletor!! Yea, my ex was worried-it was good I was able to recognize when I went too far. I think abs are overrated as women… to say I wouldnt like to have them would be a lie! lol but I think us ladies are all to quick to trash our curves. I hate my ass… although I will say when I was hiking regularly it was taking shape which was kinda nice… I wish we were still in Canberra!!! We lived right next to Mt. Ainslie so I was able to hike everyday. Back to walking I guess?! I don’t avoid the scale… I try to get on it everyday-start my day seeing where I am and it’s a good reminder that I’ll have to face it again tomorrow.

  • Jennifer Fenster April 1, 2017 at 9:44 pm Reply

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    If you do like them let us know!

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 9:50 pm Reply

      Hey Jennifer,

      Thanks for the heads up-I do better with humorous approaches so I’ll give it a look! 😉

  • Brooke Wilson April 1, 2017 at 9:48 pm Reply

    Hi there!

    It’s great to see someone give a “real” account of their struggle. I’ve always struggled with my weight and has always been health issue based. I started off at 12 with an under-active thyroid followed by celiac disease at 15. I was already restricting my food options due to being gluten free at a time where there were limited products on the market and confused parents just trying to make me less self conscious about how I was different. Fast forward to last year I was down to my lowest weight in my adult life and I got smacked with a cancer diagnosis. 8 months of chemo, steriods, and the inability to exercise I’m starting over at the highest I’ve ever weighed. I know I can get the weight off, but it’s exhausting event thinking about it! Thanks for posting your story and I look forward to your posts for some extra motivation!

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 9:54 pm Reply

      Hey Brooke,
      Thank you so much for all your kind words. So many people have issues with their thyroid! That has so be such a pain-trying to do all the right things but feeling like your body is working against you… 🙁 I’m not familiar with celiac… I also had an ex who couldn’t eat gluten-he’d bloat and feel miserable for days if he ate it. Good lord, lady!! Focus on kicking cancers ass-the weight loss is second! Keep your head up and keep fighting. xo

  • Ashley Kimel April 1, 2017 at 9:48 pm Reply

    About 5 years ago I weighed 325 lbs. I am 6’3″. My high school graduation weight was 205. I am now 44 years old, and have yet to get back down to 205. Weight loss has been a struggle for me since then. When I hit the 325 mark, I had to do something. I was eating and drinking myself to death, and if I died it would upset my family. That was the motivation I had to use to get healthy.

    I started doing low carb (it is the one diet that doesn’t feel as much like a diet for me. I also had to seriously cut back on the drinking for reasons more than just weight loss. I lost about 45 lbs doing that. I also started the P90X workout routine as I didn’t have a gym membership at the time. After a few months of losing I plateaued and switched to a vegan diet as I had some liver issues related to the drinking. I lost another 25 lbs. there. After another plateau point, I switched to just a healthy all-around diet, but allowed myself a cheat day once every two weeks to avoid going crazy.

    I eventually lost 103 lbs. I then switched careers and became a personal trainer to help those who were like me. My motivation was my family, but I find it is important to find that sort of motivation in all of my clients. Doesn’t always work, but seems to help with the mental aspect.

    Don’t get me wrong, I still love food, so it isn’t always easy.

    Thanks for sharing your story, Kris.

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 10:01 pm Reply

      Hey Ashley, It is crazy how much we will let our weigh affect our relationships and friendships and how much we will let it affect how much value we see in ourselves. I know when I’m feeling horrible… the last thing I want to do is get out of my gym clothes to face the battle with jeans that havent fit for months… and date nights… forget it. I go from being fairly easy going to a moody nightmare.

      Plateaus suck!!! But yes, I’ve found the same-sometimes you just need to switch things up… it’s like your body gets used to the change leading to needing new changes. Cheat days are sooooooo important for me!!! If I know I have a “cheat” day to look forward to I tend to stay in line.

      That is awesome on the 103 pound drop!!! I’m looking to kill 35-40 pounds… I’ve done it before but god… it feels impossible some days-ok, most days. So frustrating.

      Very cool on sharing what you’ve learned and helping others! I would love to be able to do that someday.

  • Vanessa April 1, 2017 at 9:51 pm Reply

    I TRY to cut sugar. That is my biggest problem. Sugar and flour. And increase vegetables. I just felt like Steve Martin in The Jerk. LOL I have lost almost 10 lbs but it has taken since the end of November to do it. SLOOOOOW. Getting old sucks. These are my current goals: protein with every meal and snack, more vegetables and berries, less dairy, more water, no sugar. The problem is that I get these AWFUL headaches which make me HAVE to have carbs or I might hurt someone. LOL. We eat things in our house like bulgur, chia seeds, red palm oil, and collagen peptides. And I’m still 25+ lbs overweight. But I figure I may still be overweight but I am working on it and am at least eating mostly ACTUAL food. I love to work out at home but I currently, have so many painful things wrong with me that every time I do, I suffer for days. Finding a balance in all things is so hard.

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 10:21 pm Reply

      Hey Vanessa,

      God… sugar is my drug!! It is sooooo freaking hard to kick! Nice job on the 10 pounds-slow is better than nothing! 🙂 LOL on the headaches… I dropped sugar 100% for a couple days and by day three I thought I was going to murder someone… luckily for the lives of my friends and family-I caved and ate some. Finding balance is the worst-so is finding the time.

  • Nathan H April 1, 2017 at 9:54 pm Reply

    Kris,

    I commend you on having the courage to publicly discuss the challenge most people face but are afraid to openly discuss. Weight loss and living health is a life long challenge for most people. In today’s world of fast food, it’s soooo easy to just stop by a drive-in and keep moving. However, it is also the worst thing we can do.

    My journey began 2 years ago. I noticed I had trouble walking and holding a conversation because I was out of breath. Something had to change.

    I decided a “diet” would not give me a long term solution as I have seen too many people do fad or crash diets only to have the weight return. I started out by removing or changing one unhealthy food at a time looking for the right balance. I increased my exercise or I should say started exercising by purchasing a Fitbit which helps me track how many steps I get per day with 10k being my goal.

    My story could continue for a long blog in itself so I’ll stop here. To date, down 100lbs and holding steady at the weight I want for almost 9 months.

    Find the right balance for you. Using the weight watcher style of watching your food is a great method. balance in diet and life are key to reaching and maintaining your goal. Life happens. We have good days and bad. Balance is key. 🙂

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 10:40 pm Reply

      Hey Nathan,

      Life long challenge… you arent kidding. Smart of removing one thing at a time-less of a shock on the system! 100 pounds down!!!! AWesome job!!! I’m looking to kill 35-40 pounds… eerrrr….

      Thank you for the kind words and for reading!!! 🙂

  • Gordon April 1, 2017 at 9:56 pm Reply

    Thank you for your story. It’s nice to know those also struggle with weight. After knee surgery, which crippled me for a year, and a car wreck the re-injured the same knee I gained a bunch of weight. I broke the scales at 395 lbs when the doctor looked at me and said the magic words no one wants to hear, “You’re a diabetic.” I have been forced to take the weight off or succumb to insulin shots and potential for heart disease which will take years off of my life. During the past year, I have managed to lose 75 lbs. by proper eating habits, watching calories, and light exercise. I hope to make it down to my goal weight by the end of 2017. It’s tough when you are surrounded by carbs that taste good, but aren’t good for you. Thanks for sharing your story. You’re an inspiration.

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 10:37 pm Reply

      Hey Gordon,

      So hard bouncing back from an injury!!! And the evil D word… I fear that one since I am so sugar dependent… 75 pounds though!!! That is awesome!!! 🙂 Yes-extremely difficult if you like to eat… worst is dining out with others who aren’t watching their weight-they order cheeseburgers while your stuck with rabbit food. AHHHH!!!! Hopefully we can give each other some motivation! 😉

  • John Hickson April 1, 2017 at 10:01 pm Reply

    I lost 25 lbs following Christmas Abbott’s Badass Body Diet but I found it un-sustainable. It was then that I found “Eat to
    Perform” and it is a revelation. It requires some form of exercise (the perform part) and the macro numbers they give you are based on your level of exercise and current diet. I sometimes struggle to eat enough to hit my macros, so you won’t starve. I’ve been doing it since Oct 2015. and I’ve put on 4lbs of muscle while my pants have gotten looser and I look leaner, even have visible obliques, which I’ve never had. It’s a plan you can live with, no “bad” foods. If you can fit it in your macros you can eat it, even cupcakes. No more cheat days, just days. Timing of macros (including cupcakes) is also important, eat your fast carbs after a workout to replenish, for example. There have been days where I said screw it and had a burger and fries that put me over on some of my macros and didn’t affect a thing. ETP is a very supportive community as well. You will get a coach assigned to you who can help in any way necessary. It’s a 1000 times better than “dieting” .

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 10:34 pm Reply

      Hey John,

      I originally found the same with Weight Watchers-you wont starve… IF you pick the right foods you could eat all day and be sick of eating before hitting your point limit. And same-you can eat whatever you want if you can fit it into your points, even cupcakes. It all comes down to actually sticking to it, staying motivated. Thats the hardest part.

      • john hickson April 24, 2017 at 9:56 pm Reply

        Change the word motivation to discipline because hardly anyone is motivated to do it every day, you have to develop the discipline to do it even when it’s the last thing you want to do. Cheat days are very important, gives you something to look forward to.

        • Kris Williams
          Kris Williams April 24, 2017 at 10:11 pm Reply

          eeehhh… I think you need motivation to get started then discipline to stick with it. And hell yes on cheat days – gives you something to look forward to and use to negotiate with yourself.

  • John Harvey April 1, 2017 at 10:01 pm Reply

    I am in the same boat as you! Personally, I cannot find the motivation to diet again. It is like taking on another job! I am also in a great relationship in which both of us like to eat good food and try out new recipes. We travel a good bit and always like to try out the local cuisine. Honestly I feel like I just need to buckle down and hit the gym and stick to a calorie limit. The biggest factor for me is getting moving! I just need to get mentally prepared to take on the challenge again! That is always the hard part…

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 10:05 pm Reply

      Hey John,

      LOL I am the same!!! Love food, love to eat. In many ways it has been my escape as of late and when traveling… how can you NOT try new things?!?! I’m lucky in that my guy is a healthy eater but even then he thinks you can go crazy eating mass amounts of healthy foods… which is fine-it seems to work for him… but for me-not so much. I need structure-something to follow to gage how I am doing otherwise I fall off the deep end. And YES… getting started then sticking to it is the worst. For me it always seems the first two weeks are HELL then after that things seem to get easier… the problem is, I dont usually make it past the two week mark. So freaking frustrating.

      • John Harvey April 1, 2017 at 11:31 pm Reply

        The first couple of weeks are HELL! lol. Especially when you have a lot going on in your life. Any time I am ready to get started I look on the calendar and see obstacles in my way. Good obstacles! Traveling and doing things! I remember when I was younger I would kind of flip a mental switch and just diet…challenge myself. My life was such more simple back then. I am older and happier now which in a weird way has really changed my dieting mentality. I no longer have that chip on my shoulder to prove to myself I can do this! I keep feeling like I’m making excuses to not diet, but I really am not happy with the way I look! I have even thought about talking to a nutritionist to give me that structure that you speak of. If I got some rules to follow, I think it will go a long ways with me!

  • Anna April 1, 2017 at 10:02 pm Reply

    I think its great that you are so honest about the struggles, and insecurities you have had! Like you said previously “you are human,” and by being so candid you have given an opportunity for women to be able to relate to someone on TV. Rather than compare our own imperfections to someone we watch who seems perfect. I never would have guessed you struggled this way ! From a woman whose weight fluctuates drastically the moment I look at a cheeseburger, I appreciate your openness! Solidarity sister 😉 lol

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 10:09 pm Reply

      Hey Anna!

      We all struggle with it I think! It was even worse when I was on TV cause I felt I HAD to be thin since I had a camera in my face. That said-I never had anyone from the show, production company or network tell me to lose weight… but lets be honest… weight loss is on our brains on a normal day to day basis… add a few million viewers and opinions… you try that much harder not to deal with negative comments. Since the show I kinda went on a food rampage. lol… It was nice not feeling like I had to care but five years later… I’m over it, feeling horrible and need to sort my crap out. I’m sure there will be some crazy posts to follow! 🙂

  • Betsy Brown April 1, 2017 at 10:05 pm Reply

    Oh Kris, I can so relate. I am the poster child for yo-yo dieting. A little over a year ago I found SparkPeople.com. It’s totally free and you can get as much or as little support as you want. I’ve lost 52 pounds by tracking my calories, which is the only thing that has worked for me in the long term. It’s easy and fun and they really teach you how to eat healthy. I want to be around for my granddaughter. It’s also all about the mind set and I’m really trying to “eat clean”. I do allow myself to have a cheat day on the weekend when I go out to eat and enjoy without guilt. It helps. Good luck to you on your journey.

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 10:13 pm Reply

      Hey Betsy,

      I hear you on the yo-yo. I’ve never heard of Spark… will give it a look! 52 pounds!! Way to go!! I want to kill 35-40… god it feels impossible even though I’ve done it before!! I think cheat days are key, I have always needed them. If you dont have a day to look forward to… there will be a binge! Thank you for your kind words and for reading! 🙂

  • Deanne April 1, 2017 at 10:11 pm Reply

    I can relate way too much to being a yo-yo with my weight. I was always tall for my age, so it made sense that I weighed a little more than a lot of my friends in middle school, but when I stopped growing it was frustrating that I still seemed to weigh more than them. By the time I got to college I was way heavier than I wanted to be so I decided to cut down significantly on my soda consumption, which helped a ton. Between that and using the elliptical at the gym, I was finally getting back to the weight I was when I played high school basketball. But you know how it is, you get a little lazy and all of a sudden it seems like of that ten pounds you lost, five of them are back.

    One thing that has helped me over the years has been running. In high school I HATED running more than anything. But once I got to college, I started looking at it as a stress reliever instead of a punishment, and now there are few things I love more than going for a run, even if it’s just a brisk jog some days and clearing my head. Although, now that it’s February it’s increasingly difficult to get out between the snow and cold.

    Something else I try to do is at the grocery store avoid the snack aisle. If I don’t buy the salty, fatty snacks then they won’t be in the house and I won’t be tempted to binge. (although, a cheat day here and there is to be expected.)

    Good luck on your journey, hopefully we all can keep each other in check and offer encouragement when needed!

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 10:31 pm Reply

      Tall girls unite!! lol I hear you, Deanne!!!

      Same deal-always taller, always heavier. So frustrating. Soda is the WORST. You know, I was never one that was hooked on it growing up but in the last year or so I have become hooked on Coke Zero… from the looks of it, diet cokes are more addictive and more harmful than regular soda and I believe it! Notice when I drink too much I get a bloated belly. Freaking horrible.

      Totally on the ten pounds lost, five of them are back… sometimes I feel like I blinked and they are back laughing at me!

      I got into running on a tread mill for awhile and didn’t mind it-let me be clear… I didnt love it, lol but I didnt hate it. That was during GH and when the shows aired during that running stretch I got a lot of “you look fit” comments… annoying part is I gave up on running cause I FELT FATTER!!!! so insane.

      I’m weird… I need SOMETHING in the house… bite sized chocolatey something… otherwise I will binge and binge hard. Most the time I can control myself although Id be lying if I said I never have weak moments where I eat the whole damn package in one go.

      YES!!! On the keep each other in check and encouragement! 🙂

  • Ken April 1, 2017 at 10:14 pm Reply

    I struggled most of my life with my weight and a few other things (drugs, alcohol, cigarettes). 30 years ago I gave up the drugs and alcohol. 20 years ago the cigarettes. Finally about a year ago I went for the gastric bypass. I have lost 115 lbs over the last 14 months. I went from 281 to 165 and a normal BMI. I am healthier today at age 55 than I have ever been in my life. I also weigh myself every evening and every morning. I am just working on maintaining at this point. I eat 5-6 small meals a day (every 3-4 hours). 2-3 of those meals are protein bars.

    Loving life!

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 10:23 pm Reply

      Wow, Ken!
      Seriously… nice work! Out of all the things you’ve kicked-which would you say was the worst to beat? Drugs, alcohol, cigarettes or controling food intake?

      • Ken April 1, 2017 at 11:09 pm Reply

        It’s really hard to say. But I think the wieght loss was the toughest which is why I went with the surgery. With drug and alcohol i had support groups and I stayed away from everything for years. Cigarettes I just decided I had enough on my tenth anniversary of being clean. But food you have to eat to survive. You can’t avoid it. Makes it difficult.

  • Steve Kypers April 1, 2017 at 10:43 pm Reply

    Congratulations on getting hold of your weight problems and thanks SO MUCH for sharing your story Kris. It’s a wonderful motivation when you hear or read about how others have dealt with weight issues.
    For myself, I’m 55 years old and when I was young never had a weight problem. I was athletic, and I weighed in the 160 – 165 lb range from high school all through my 20’s. I was able to eat pretty much whatever I wanted. When I hit my mid thirties it all caught up with me. I was less active, and my metabolism slowed. I blew up from my 160ish range up to around 235 and at 5′ 8″ that was too much. Like you, I also turned to Weight Watchers at the recommendation of a friend who was doing well with it. Weight Watchers worked like a charm. I lost weight steadily a few pounds at a time, and after around 6 months I was at my goal of 170lb. I swore I felt so good, I would never go back… no way, no how… And I didn’t, at least not right away. I maintained my weight for a few years, and slowly it started to creep back up on me. I tried a few diets but none really worked, as I would drop a couple, then gain them back. I even gave WW another go, but this time it just wasn’t working for me. By the time I was in my early 50’s I had peaked out at 260lb. Mentally and physically I was a mess. Besides the weight gain, I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes, looked like crap, and felt like crap. My Doctor started me on all sorts of meds, and knew I was on a collision course with an early grave.
    I decided that was enough. I would beat this down with a good diet and exercise. My goal was to get off meds and get below 180lb.
    I found a diet through a friend called Beyond Diet. They had a website that was easy to follow. The bottom line is they teach you to eat healthy. It calls for more protein, while taking in less carbs and what carbs you do take in you get from veggies with very little bread and pasta. Organic foods whenever possible, and eat more meals (in smaller portions) each day. It’s been a long road, but since starting this healthy eating diet about 1 1/2 years ago I’ve dropped 60lb, and am now off ALL my meds. I have my blood sugar under control with diet, along with perfect blood pressure, and cholesterol levels. I feel the best I’ve felt in decades, and actually look younger now at 55 than I did at 45. To everyone out there struggling… Stick to it. Even if you mess up, just get back on it tomorrow. You CAN do it!!!!!!!

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 11:14 pm Reply

      Hey Steve,

      Maintaining is the worst. I think you get to the point where youre like “I got this!!” then start thinking you can get away with extras that all add up to weigh creeping back on. Its tough. I’ve never heard of Beyond Diet… will have to check it out. the smaller portions and more meals worked for me in the past-did that with Weight Watchers actually. AWESOME job on getting off the meds and the weight loss!! 🙂

  • Gerry Haas April 1, 2017 at 10:59 pm Reply

    Do to some health issues last year, I decided it was time to really lose weight. I cut way back on salt, by never touching a salt shaker and try to pick low salt meals. Cut back on drinking and eliminated soda. I also try to just have a health breakfast, usually a cup of yogurt (no more donuts or muffins) with coffee or sometimes a veggie omelet. Lunch is usual a 8oz cup of assorted fruit, instead of a food court lunch. I have regular dinner with family. I found weighing myself each day reminds me to watch what I’m eating. For exercise I been walking and ride old single speed bike when weather permits. So far I have lost about 58 lbs. It is a struggle as I love food. Life style changes never easy. But in return I feel much better, look better and have more energy.

    • KrisWilliams
      KrisWilliams April 1, 2017 at 11:05 pm Reply

      I do the same with the scale Gerry-everyday! I know a lot of people say you should since your weight can fluctuate day to day but for me, it’s a daily check in and reminder to play it smart. Im also the same with food… I love it!! It makes it so hard to cut back when you really enjoy eating… especially sweets!! I’m horrible with sugar-really need to cut back. I am down about 8 pounds which isn’t a bad start but I still have a long way to go.

      • Gerry Haas April 2, 2017 at 10:48 pm Reply

        Kris, 8 lbs is a very good start! You are doing great keep it up! I think when you weigh yourself every day is is helpfully. If you have lost a little you are happy and want to keep it off. If you up a pound or 2 it inspires you to get rid of it before it turns into 2 or 3. It is not easy when you love food, so every little trick helps.

  • Cheryl April 1, 2017 at 11:02 pm Reply

    Hugs to everyone struggling with food. I truly consider myself an addict and have always said if alcoholics had to take liquor out of the cabinet three times a day and have only _this much_ no one would ever get sober! I learned so much attending Overeaters Annoymous meetings on and off for many years. I’d rec them to anyone. They are free and you work with someone else to 1) develop your own eating plan and 2) be accountable to someone who gets the struggle.

    Essentially I’ve learned that – for me – sugar is the trigger. It’s the first drink. When I’m eating added sugar, it’s only a matter of time before I start binging on all the sweet things. I still have fruits and fruit sweetened jams and I do use real maple syrup very sparingly in things like oatmeal, but overall I don’t do what you’d think of as “sweets” at all.

    Two other general things for me. I try to eat at least some protein at each meal and more if I’m doing higher carbs, like the oatmeal. (Then I usually have an egg too.) Second, I don’t eat between meals. I have four (3+a mini meal about an hour before bed). Otherwise, I don’t weigh or measure foods and I eat what I want with full fat real foods like butter, milk etc. Fat in the diet is so essential for me. It carries essential fat-soluble vitamins that I’m usually deficient in when I try going “low fat”. Plus it’s what keeps you feeling satisfied between meals.

    And miraculously, I don’t count calories. This is the only eating style that has ever caused me to lose weight and keep it off without vitamin and iron deficiency and chronic fatigue. Yes, ending the added sugar is hard at first. But honestly it’s much better after a week or so and eating other real foods with fat and fiber and flavor takes away the dietness of it.

    That said, it’s just what has always worked for me. After starting my first diet in fifth grade, it’s been so refreshing to eat like “normal” people when I’m abstaining from sweets.

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 1, 2017 at 11:21 pm Reply

      Hey Cheryl,

      100% on the alcohol comparison!!! I have always said food is worse than alcohol/drugs because-you can live without alcohol and drugs… you cant live without eating. Makes it tough when you cant escape the problem. Sugar is my trigger too… if I dont eat it I go mental after a couple of days which leads to binging… if I do eat it, it turns into a downward spiral thats hard to crawl out of.

      • Chris Clark April 2, 2017 at 1:24 am Reply

        This is my philosophy too. Food is an addiction without sympathy.

      • Steve Kypers April 3, 2017 at 12:53 am Reply

        AMEN to that Kris! I say the same thing. A drug addict or Alcoholic stops using the substance 100%. Try kicking either addiction while partaking in it 3-5 times a day in limited amounts!

  • Elizabeth Rupp April 1, 2017 at 11:29 pm Reply

    Kris,

    I still struggle and my biggest issue is motivation and having bad knees. I had a friend introduced me to the 21 day fix program and I did lose 20lbs but I’m afraid to weight myself because since then I stopped following the diet because of time and exhaustion. I gained weight due to PTSD which messed with my thyroid and gained 60lbs. It’s been a struggle since to loose weight but the part I realized what hurt the most is how weight and size in society determines beauty and because I am not thin meant I wasn’t beautiful enough. You are correct about genetics and unfortunately for me I can go either way, but since having my kids, a divorce, PTSD, schooling, new job, I’m supposed to find time for myself because other people are able too so why can’t I. This is the conundrum, because I know that if I am able to eat when the plan tells me to eat and prepackage or know the foods that I should eat and should avoid and exercise that I could lose weight, but after going to school all day to working at night to wake up and repeat it is exhausting. You are left susceptible to sickness and other health issues if you do not allow your body to rest. I know specifically your article asks what do other people do about weight and I will save the 21 day fix does works, but when you’re traveling and you have a very busy lifestyle it ultimately comes down to portion control, knowing what you’re eating, and making sure that you do eat and drink more water than soda. As women our bodies are meant to store fat easier than men because our job as women is that we are supposed to reproduce and we need fat storage to help carry a fetus. We have to understand what we need to do to be healthy but we have to stop being hard on ourselves because the ideal woman is not out there because we are each different and we should not have to kill ourselves just to look the way others want us to. Thank you for posting this article about your struggles and ultimately just do what you can with what you have and the best thing that I can suggest is education.

  • Kris April 1, 2017 at 11:53 pm Reply

    At the age of 35 I had to have a double bypass (got to love genetics, and a high stress job.) That was 3 years ago, and trying to keep weight off as I lose it is a struggle. Sometimes the weight will yo-yo or will hit a plateau. Weight loss is a bitch. I try to stay positive when that happens, and remind myself that even if my weight is not changing the exercise is good for me.

    I find walking helps (plus the dogs like it), and I do it for about 45 minutes 3 times a day. I find spending my time with my dogs to be a great stress reliever, and a good motivator to get up and move. Plus living in Maine I have a lot of nature I can go walking through.

    My biggest problems with healthy living are trying to lower my stress levels, and getting a good nights rest every night. Stress & not sleeping enough will mess with your body. The stress part has gotten better as I stay away from people (not friends, and family), and cut out those people who were nothing but drama.

    Eating healthy can be rough at times as most “healthy” food sucks. It also cost more to eat healthy than it does to eat the garbage food. Though I have learned to cook more healthy as time passed. I eat more home cooked meals now, and far less take out meals. The biggest change was when I stopped drinking soda. I noticed after a few weeks I had more energy.

    I just take it one day at a time, and hope I wake up for the next day.

  • Chris Clark April 2, 2017 at 1:23 am Reply

    Ugh, life on the road is the worst for eating healthy. I have always struggled with weight. I had gotten myself in a good healthy place in my life and size. Things were all going my way, good diet, personal trainer, and good support system. My career was taking off too. I got a job in television working for a very popular traveling Food Network show. Let’s just say that for someone that has a issue with food, this might not have been the best situation. I was working before the hotel gyms opened and back well after they closed. All of the restaurants want you to try and eat their food. Inevitably sending a whole bunch with you to the hotel. To unwind, there was quite a lot of drinking after work at 11 or 12 at night, then it was off to bed. My weight just skyrocketed.

    As a man and not being talent, there really isn’t a whole lot of pressure on me to stay thin. But I can imagine how EPs and network execs would put the pressure on big time to keep Kris stick thin. I’m currently trying to come up with some sort of reparational diet that can work, but it’s been an uphill battle.

  • Christine Anderly April 2, 2017 at 7:49 am Reply

    Lately I find in my depression I won’t eat nor do I desire to eat during the day. Then at night I eat to much. I can’t seem to stop or care. Then I wake up and feel the guilt . So I don’t eat all day and the cycle continues. . I am in complete denial about my weight. . I look in the mirror and think I look ok.. then I see a picture of myself that someone took and I am shocked by what I see.. I honestly don’t know what to do or where to start to be successful. . I use food to self medicate.. I don’t know how I ended up like this.. I am guessing low self worth due to abuse. ..

  • Mark April 2, 2017 at 11:39 am Reply

    I used to watch gh all the time and I thought you always looked great! It seems like we have similar histories. Being “big boned” kind of runs in my family, I love food and hate exorcising. I know you said you’re done with plans, but the thing that worked for me was a plan called food lovers weight loss. Basically the gist of it is, cut out all sugar from your diet. The guideline was if there is any type of sugar, strait up, glucose, sucrose, whatever… In the first four ingredients of a food, don’t eat it. Another big guideline was no enriched flour, which means no white bread and even most wheat breads unless you get the 100% whole grain stuff that tastes like cardboard. I usually stuck to sourdough; you can substitute for it in most restaurants. Anyway,I lost a crap ton of weight doing the food lovers diet. Good luck!

  • Nathan April 2, 2017 at 12:27 pm Reply

    Nutrimost. Lost 50 pounds in 40 days. The best thing about it is that I learned how to cook the whole foods that are good for you and reset my body to be healthier. While nutrimostcipes.com will give you the recipes, the only way to reset your body is to actually do the program with a doctor.

  • Bill Merenda April 2, 2017 at 5:39 pm Reply

    I have never seen you or a picture of you where you were not beautiful. But I understand your struggle since I have been there and are still there today. The one thing that always works for me is calorie counting. Now I am not an obsessive counter, I’m more of a calorie estimator. I rarely eat prepackaged foods because they are not good for me. I live alone and cook for myself. I have over time gotten used to knowing the approximate calories in something that I am about to eat. That took some time to get used to but once I got used to it I was good to go. I can take in 2500 calories a day and that will maintain my weight. If I eat 2000 calories in a day I will lose weight because my body doesn’t have enough calories to sustain my weight. It is that simple. Believe me, I can eat really good food and lose weight. Like you I have tried everything and this is really the only thing that works in every situation. I actually know what I can eat to maintain my weight and what I can eat to lose weight. One last thing. Your diet is your life, so never go on a diet to lose weight for an occasion. Live your diet. Find a weight that you are comfortable with and then maintain that. Don’t sweat over a few pounds up or down, no body is perfect. Best of luck to you. I hope I helped.

  • Melissa April 2, 2017 at 8:48 pm Reply

    Kris! Thanks for sharing such a real story! I can totally relate. I am very short – only 5 foot and I have about 12 lbs to release (I hate using the word lose because it makes it sound like you lost it and need to find it) . 12 lbs may not sound like a ton but 10 lbs on a shorter person may look like 20 on someone taller. Anyway I am working out at home -videos (Jillian is my fav) and I am using Lose It app to track what I eat. Once you add a food in the app, it saves it so it’s easy to log. I love chocolate – dark is my favorite and I always have some around. If I need a fix I take a small piece and then go and do something to distract myself from wanting more. And distract meaning read, clean, play an app on my device – anything g to get my mind off of it. Also drinking half my body weight in water each day. Daily weigh in and I am hoping it helps. Girl you are not alone in this battle. Good luck to you!

  • Debby Shipp April 5, 2017 at 2:30 am Reply

    I too have the ‘ass’ situation. My heaviest weight was 277lbs. When I did lose it I looked like a skeleton…from the waist up…bubble butt below with bigger than average thighs. More so than U ever were I bet. Being older now, not so worried about certain things. But I have kept my weight down by watching my fat grams…I let myself have cheat days & not feel guilty about it when I do. It all depends on what will work for U. U will get it figured out.

    And BTW…so looking forward to your new TV Show!!!!!

  • Laura April 5, 2017 at 4:12 am Reply

    Last year I dropped about 15 lbs in 6 weeks by walking! Seriously, I’m not a very active person and I HATE exercise- but I was trying to lose some weight before going to see a special friend *wink, wink* and so I bought myself a FitBit and realized how sedentary I actually was- I work from home and in a tiny apartment so I was surprised to see myself some days not even hitting 3K steps. I set my goal to hit 10K steps/day for 5 out of the 7 days in a week- giving myself a couple of days to slack a bit (i.e. not having to go to the track, just trying to be more active in my daily routine). I’m honestly not sure how healthy it is but I did do the Military Diet about 3 times in that 6 weeks, that helped be to lose mostly water weight but every pound helped. Beyond that I did not change my diet whatsoever. Also- with walking that much I did naturally drink more water (to avoid cramping up and dehydration) but I HATE water so that was a struggle at other times during the day. I also picked up yoga during that time and I was amazed at how much better I just felt generally from doing that alone- my aches and pains disappeared! I kept the weight off after that for about 5 months without regular exercise but like your time with GH I traveled a LOT for work in the fall- I was gone all of September and October- and so some of the weight has creeped back on me. Trying to get myself back to the track but I’ve now lost my motivation so I’m struggling REALLY hard to do it right now.

    Just for comparison- I’m 30 years old and I was close to 170 at my highest, 152 at my lowest, and currently sitting at 161.

  • patty herbert April 5, 2017 at 11:23 pm Reply

    The only thing that worked for me was kickboxing and better eating choices and at 47.it still is a battle.i love carbs and chocolate lol.now i eat them in moderation and feel and look better..was always a short stocky girl at 5’2.and my weight stay between 140-130..id like to get to 125..but its very hard

  • Jonathan April 6, 2017 at 12:00 am Reply

    My weight has slowly been climbing for the past 8 years or so and I finally hit that wall of having to make a change. After trying things like Weight Watchers and Nutrisystem (which smelled and looked like dog food to me), I knew I had to do something more and make a complete lifestyle change.
    What I am writing below is not a sales pitch or marketing ploy, I am saying this with all sincerity.
    I have found something that has helped immensely in my new approach to being healthy. I have added a product called Plexus to my daily routine. Also called “the pink drink”, it is a mix added to water that is taken once daily. I have been taking this product for approximately 3 months now, and I am a complete believer in it. I have lost 15 pounds and 4 inches from my waist. But more importantly are the other health benefits from it. My resting heart rate has lowered, cholesterol and blood pressure have decreased and it has eliminated the sugar and carb cravings that I used to have.
    In addition, it has reduced my appetite, my need for caffeine and my energy levels are high the entire day. Because my cravings for certain foods are down and I don’t crave those sugary and carb loaded foods, my eating habits are becoming much better and I am eating less.
    I know it sounds like a marketing pitch, but believe me it isn’t. I have never found something as amazing as Plexus. This product has helped me so much. If you or anyone else would like more information on this product, please let me know.

    Good luck to you and everyone else!

  • Raz April 6, 2017 at 12:44 am Reply

    If you have access to a gym I’d suggest a basic powerlifting regimen (squats, bench press, deadlifts, overhead presses). The compound exercises activate a variety of muscles which overtime will consume a lot of calories. Throw in cardio, a little fasted cardio first thing in the morning (could be as simple as a brisk walk) will help. Drink green tea twice a day, it boosts metabolism. Treat yourself to your guilty pleasure foods once a week and if your sweet tooth is craving something I’d recommend Quest Bars especially the chocolate chip cookie dough one. It has a good source of protein, few carbs, and uses natural sugars. Avocado is great as well, salmon with its Omega-3s.

  • Jennifer April 6, 2017 at 12:58 am Reply

    I have been through every diet or weight loss product u can buy nothing worked for me. Then i tried thrive it works wonders! http://Www.le-vel.com 🙂 hope this post helps at least one person cuz i mean the struggle is real!

  • Brittany Murrell April 6, 2017 at 12:59 am Reply

    Hey Kris!
    Thanks for sharing your struggles and offering support. I turned 30 last July and while I knew it was going to be a difficult one, I had no clue what a real bitch she was. Adult acne? Here ya go! Your first gray hair… Oh, here it is ON YOUR BIRTHDAY. 😑 Massive weight gain? My pleasure. This is what brought me to my really effing pissed off moment regarding weight gain. It’s been tough because my habits didn’t change, my body did. So now that meant I HAD to change my habits and while it has taken me a while to get motivated, I’m there now. Just beginning, but I LOVE food so instead of labeling myself as “on a diet” I’m really just trying to focus on eating better. More veggies, less sugar, less carbs, more water.. and I enjoy trying lots and lots of new recipes so I enjoy the healthy stuff as much as pizza 🙂
    Diabetes runs in my family and I’ve been told I’m borderline so I have no choice. I’ll win this battle but reading stories like yours reminds me to be patient (I have a problem with instant gratification) and stay motivated.

    Thank you for that!!

  • Lauren Antoine April 6, 2017 at 2:22 am Reply

    Hey Kris!
    I have also tried all the fad diets. Honestly whatever I lost I gained as soon as I ate regular food. I have struggles with my weight since I was 17yrs old. I met my husband when I was 21, I have gained about 50-60 lbs since then! 🙁
    In January I decided enough is enough. I had my daughter about 16 months ago so I have time to lose weight before getting preggo again. I ordered Cize it up from Shaun T! Omg I love it! I’m not a dancer whatsoever, but I can do it! I actually look forward to working out now. I highly recommend it if you Like to do DVD work out at home.
    As for eating I have been watching my calories through myfitnesspal. That has helped me so much. In 2 months I have lost 18lbs. That is a huge success for me!

    I just wanna say how much I love to watch you on Ghost Hunters and Ghost Hunters International! Definitely my fav of the group!

    I hope you can find your own groove… It’s taking me 13 years to finally find mine and stay committed!! Lol!

    😁 Lauren

  • Teresa April 6, 2017 at 2:38 am Reply

    Thanks for sharing your story! For what it’s worth, your struggle has never been visible to me – I always thought you looked great throughout your years on GH/GHI and now! I have found my weight to “yo-yo” and have never been successful in losing my big butt, even when I weighed 112 pounds at 18 years old (although I’m sure it was less big at that time than it is now)! Currently, at age 32 and 135 pounds, I’m looking to drop 5-7 pounds, and I feel like I’m starting at square one again since turning 30. I think my metabolism has gone through another change and I have to figure out what my body does and does not need to be healthy and to burn fat most efficiently. (I also know my desk job is NOT my body’s friend!) In general, avoiding pasta, grains, bread, and any processed food did the trick for me in my twenties and I intend to stick to that. I think I need to look at cutting my calories, but I am definitely not into the calorie counting crap or getting crazy about what I’m eating. I also noticed that incorporating more strength training and not doing chronic cardio also makes a big difference for me. I’m really just doing trial and error right now to see what does and doesn’t work!

  • Scott Abbott April 6, 2017 at 1:21 pm Reply

    I Have ALWAYS Seen You As AN EXTREMELY BEAUTIFUL Young Lady Kris , So Many Women Worry About Their Size , A Real Man Will Love you No Matter What Size You Are DEAR , A Woman’s True Beauty Comes From Within Her Heart And Soul , YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL KRIS WILLIAMS Inside And Out . I Would Love To Meet You , I Loved You On GH , Both You And Amy Are My Favorites .

  • Rich Blandford April 6, 2017 at 1:24 pm Reply

    Kris, I have personally found the Holy Grail for me. Intermittent Fasting has made it easier to control my caloric intake while eating everything I enjoy. I’ve lost 19 lbs in the last 3 months while doing workouts 3 days a week and still having red wine a couple times a week. If you want to o look for into IF check out kinobody.com or bradpilon.com or leangains.com There is info outside there everywhere. Good luck finding your Holy Grail, hope this helps.

  • Geneva Jamsa April 6, 2017 at 1:56 pm Reply

    I’m with you on the weight struggles. My weight has gone up and down my entire life. There was a period where I couldn’t workout because of my hip issues, which required them to be replaced. I have been over 200 pounds since I had my daughter back in 1989. I actually got down to 194 last year and honestly don’t know how I did it and when I try to maintain it I seem to mess it up some how lol. I have tried several different approaches to lose the weight from pills to juicing. I stopped drinking sodas about 5 years ago and I stopped getting migraines and kidney stones. What I have found that works for me is moderation which, as you know, is damn near impossible to do when you love food. I also started cooking more at home and only eat out once or twice a month. I try to workout 2-3 times a week as well. So yes….the struggle is REAL LOL!

  • Crista McCauley April 6, 2017 at 2:34 pm Reply

    Hey Kris,

    We met a few years back at the Pasadena Playhouse. I was thin then. I have yo-yo all my life. About 6 years ago, I lost over 100lbs, simply cutting soda and eating smaller portions. Other than hiking I don’t really enjoy exercise lol.

    Almost 2 years ago my father lost his battle with cancer, it devastated me. I began comforting myself with food….again. Since then I have put on about 45 lbs. Sounds like no big deal right? Well add in a bum knee and a full hysterectomy and it becomes a huge deal!! I can’t lose weight for the life of me. Between no energy and achy body parts, it makes it almost impossible.

    I weigh myself daily to remind myself it’s only going to keep climbing if I don’t keep trying. I have started watching calories, substituting comfort foods with veggies and fruit and I drink massive amounts of water to fill my stomach up. I am trying to do a lot of walking, again, with the knee it makes it hard.

    All I can say is just be aware and continue to try. You’re a beautiful woman and no matter what size you are, people are going to love you.

    If you are ever in So Cal and need a walking buddy, i’m your girl 🙂

    Take care.

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 7, 2017 at 2:36 am Reply

      So true on the being aware and continuing to try-so easy to give up, especially if you dont keep track of your slip ups and (most importantly) SUCCESSES! 😉

  • Michael April 7, 2017 at 6:55 pm Reply

    Kris, I want to start off by saying I have always thought you were beautiful, and it wasn’t just because of the looks, but I’ve always thought you had them!

    Flattery aside, weight is something I’ve been struggling with, and loosing, for a while now. My army days are long behind me where I weighed between 180 and 205 (looked like a steroid freak thanks to the push-ups, ha ha). Now I’ve hit a spot on the scale where I realize that I’m in bad shape. I’ve still got the muscle under there somewhere, but now it’s buried under a couple of spare tires, stress, and some regrets.

    My problem is time. There are days that I don’t even get to sleep, so a healthy meal is whatever I can find that isn’t fast food. The struggle is real. I’m good at losing, usually rapidly, but keeping it off is difficult, just because of stress and job hours.

    Like everyone else, I can appreciate your openness, and seeing the other responses gives me some additional inspiration. Keep up the hard work, and know that we’re all with you!

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 7, 2017 at 12:05 am Reply

      Thank you, Michael! The struggle is very real-some of use deal with it better than others… and then there are those few you just have to hate cause it’s “easy” for them, lol. We’re all in it together! 🙂

  • Michael April 24, 2017 at 7:44 pm Reply

    Awesome article, Kris! I remember in high school (i went to an all boys HS, so we had nothing better to do then make fun of each other) one kid was always making fun of my weight and someone asked him what he gets out of making fun of me for my weight and the kid said that he is helping me because it would motivate me to lose weight so he would stop making fun of me. I still don’t get that logic! But weight loss is something i struggle with 15 years later. I’ll be on a roll losing weight at the gym, then i’ll hurt myself and gain it all back. I tried various diets to little success, but right now i’m doing the low carb “caveman diet.” Basically you only eat and drink things that would have been available to a caveman. Sorry, caveperson. So far it is working, i started on 3/20 and i have lost 14lbs without going to the gym. But i should be down more, i have serious problems adhering to it on the weekend when i go out with friends or travel. I’ll work on it.

    P.S. i used to be friends with Ben and Jerry as well. Ben was cool, but Jerry was a complete a-hole!

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 24, 2017 at 7:49 pm Reply

      That’s awesome on the 14! Yea, I’m thinking of doing a caveman sorta thing here too. Just trying to stick with non-processed foods with the use of protein shakes in between meals to avoid snacking, cravings, etc. See how I go…

      • Michael April 24, 2017 at 8:03 pm Reply

        To be honest, i find myself not snacking between meals and i’m full after eating less. I was in a bad habit of having a 9pm snack every night and that has pretty much gone away. Unfortunately, boredom eating at 4pm on a Saturday still rears its ugly head…

        Good luck!

        I do have a foolproof way for you to stick to weight loss plans – say “i want to lose X amount by X date, if i don’t meet this goal, i will go on social media and answer ghost hunters questions for an hour.” You will hit your goal in no time!

  • Melissa S. April 24, 2017 at 7:48 pm Reply

    Kris, I so understand the up and down. Please don’t let anyone make you feel inferior because of your weight struggles. You’re weight whether up or down does not define you. You are a beautiful,kind and fun person. I love what you share with us. It’s nice to know we are not alone. We only want to see you happy. As I remind myself one day at a time. I’ve tried lots of dieting. Including, gluten free, Paleo, No wheat, Whole grain, No sugar. Which was a nightmare( Extreme sweet tooth!). I have several health issues that contribute to my struggle to find the right diet. As far as exercising, It’s been extremely difficult and trying not to feel down about the way my body keeps changing is really hard. Said all that to say, whatever you choose I’m here to support you verbally by text here. God bless you, Hope you enjoy a good day today!

  • David April 24, 2017 at 7:49 pm Reply

    You know what Kris, it’s awesome to see you address this in such a… I guess in such a supportive manner, rallying others together to share experiences. Granted, none of us have had the international exposure you have, but in life we are all in the same boat.

    I’m a 6′ tall guy, but all through my teen and my adult years I’ve battled anorexia. I guess until this day I’m psychologically damaged because I STILL forget to eat. Regardless, I’ve always battles weight.

    Today though, in no way glorifying unhealthy weight, I’ve kind of learned to not worry so much about how people see me and focus on how I see myself. I, too, love food – I inspired for years to travel, write, and eat like Anthony Bourdain. But I’ve also learned weight loss and the journey that comes with it comes down to learning to love yourself at the end of the day. Sure, I have 10-20 to lose, but I’m quite alright with it… It’s not a solution that’ll work for everyone, but it’s a hell of a lot better than the anorexia I have battles with on occasion.

    Do as you’re doing with trying to eat healthy meals, and refrain from stocking the house with anything you’ll regret later. On the road, keep in mind restaurants have healthy choices, regardless how wonderful​the other choices appear. Work out regularly, and the rest falls along with it.

    The world thinks you’re beautiful, regardless of what the mirror tells you on down days.

    • David April 24, 2017 at 7:51 pm Reply

      Also, to clarify, my mirror comment was directed moreso towards how our own brain distorts what the mirror tells us. ☺️

  • Julie April 24, 2017 at 8:32 pm Reply

    I too have a horrible sweet tooth! I’ve been trying to stick with dark chocolate. It’s doesn’t have a lot of sugar and it’s suppose to help keep your blood sugar level. When I get hungry between meals I eat a boiled egg or some cheese. My biggest problem is when I lose weight I lose it in weird spots. My arms and shoulders get bony, but my stomach is still puffy! So frustrating!!!

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 24, 2017 at 9:14 pm Reply

      Yes!!! It is weird how/where weight is lost… I swear I live on boiled eggs and feta! lol I have also gotten my Dad and guy hooked on feta too! Makes me think of that commercial with a lil ol lady that says, “I put that shit on everything” LOL

  • Brian Foust April 24, 2017 at 9:16 pm Reply

    Howdy Kris. I love how sum of these doctors tell me for my height & age I should weigh 171 lbs. I haven’t weighed that since I was 15. I feel good at 210 lbs.

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 24, 2017 at 9:19 pm Reply

      Yea, it can be a bit crazy. I know the first time I lost weight I aimed for 10 thinking I’d be good there. Got there and realized… I could lose another 10… did that till I was down 35 pounds. Felt flipping awesome till the agency told me to lose more leaving me looking anorexic. I just bounced back to where I was happy – got to listen to our bodies.

  • Kathy Jung April 24, 2017 at 9:52 pm Reply

    Hi Kris,
    The weight struggle is real!! I was 135 lbs for most of my life. I only gained 25 lbs with my second pregnancy and last that immediately. Then came my 50’s. Menopause. I’ve gained 30 lbs. I can’t lose it. My metabolism is shot. If you find the magic way to lose, please share it!! By the way, you do look wonderful!!

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 24, 2017 at 10:12 pm Reply

      See that’s what I’m afraid of too – being the heaviest I’ve ever been and I haven’t had kids yet. Want to get rid of this extra weight before piling more on top with a pregnancy.

  • Kristen April 24, 2017 at 11:03 pm Reply

    I have little self control with dieting but love to work out…I maintain my weight doing this but I want to lose some!

  • Christopher Piper April 24, 2017 at 11:10 pm Reply

    I completely empathize with your struggle and you are very brave and very strong to talk about it and share your thoughts with everyone. I started packing on the weight after I ended up in a wheelchair and it was devastating and it times humiliating. There are all kinds of companies out there trying to sell you a solution and let’s face it, these are multi million dollar industries. I finally managed to find a way where losing weight is easy but I don’t always stick with it. Essentially, eat what you want but limited quantity and if you take in less than you burn off, you will lose weight !! I managed to lose 12 pounds in just two weeks using this method and you are denied nothing. My understanding is, if you forget about fat and sugar and concentrate on calorie intake… you will lose weight. Don’t deny yourself anything and enjoy food when you’re out, just have tiny portions and take the rest home for another meal. I will always have a struggle with weight because of my inactivity, but if I want to be serious, I know what will work. These are just my thoughts and a little of my experience.

  • Steve April 24, 2017 at 11:28 pm Reply

    Hi Kris. Thank you for being a regular chick and admitting that you have issues with this. I was a “fat kid” and was teased for that and many other things. When I was in my 40s I decided to quit the bad food habits and change.

    The first thing I decided to do was to cut my food intake. I would get a plate of food and literally scrape off half of my food. Then, very soon after that, I decided to SLOW DOWN when I ate. I had always inhaled my food like I was a hoover. It didn’t help that I had been in the Army and you eat like a ravenous animal. I would put my fork down in between bits and chew my food like a normal human should.

    I did that for about a year when I then decided to learn about the food I was consuming. I quickly found out that the “food” I was eating was nothing but modified junk and chemicals. I started reading the ingredient list on food labels and realized that I was killing my body. I adjusted to eating real food.

    All said and done, I lost 119 lbs, started exercising regularly and I have kept it off for about 5 years now. I ended up eating mostly Paleo, but I like cheese too much and it doesn’t mess with my stomach.

    Keep it up. Every day is new. The only reason to look back is to celebrate how far you have come. Keep making good decisions and don’t take on too much. Cut out one thing at a time and get used to living like that for a while.

    You have been gifted with beauty and I am proud of you for wanting to take control of your health.

  • Matt April 25, 2017 at 12:12 am Reply

    I packed on weight after breaking both legs. Its a double ended sword. I cant loose weight because of the extreme pain from my legs but i get extra pain in my legs because of the weight. There’s no winning.

  • Brianna April 25, 2017 at 12:12 am Reply

    My husband and I started Sanford Profile March 6. It involves shakes, bars, and portion control and understanding fats etc. I was NOt a fan of the shakes (picky eater) but my husband loves them. I changed to weight watchers about 3 weeks ago which I’m not losing as much as fast as Profile but I am happier about my food selection. My husband has lost 25 lbs in 7 weeks and just hit under 200 lbs! I lost about 8 on Profile after 3 weeks and another 7 from weight watchers. Weight watchers app definitely helps you understand what you should and should not eat based on points and it has opened my eyes to that. It’s a lifestyle change and not a diet. Good luck!!

    • Kris Williams
      Kris Williams April 25, 2017 at 2:34 am Reply

      Weight Watchers is great – I did it years ago and lost weight quick. The last few times I have tried to go back I got sick of tracking or got bored in general with it. I would really like to get to a point where I just know what to eat and how much. I think we all know to some degree… we’d just rather better tasting options, lol. Gonna give the clean eating a go… Nice job over there!!! 15 pounds isnt easy! 🙂

      • Brianna April 28, 2017 at 1:18 am Reply

        Thanks Kris! Having a great group of support is always key to success as well! We are all on the same team in life 😉

  • Kell April 25, 2017 at 3:23 am Reply

    Hey Kris,

    I feel your pain girl. I’m in my forties and have tried every diet in the book. There is no diet that works really you have to change your lifestyle and relationship with food. You have to have a sense of humor and stop beating yourself up over the scale too. Everyone says eliminate this or that. But let’s be real we all love chocolate and carbs and sugar, I mean life is meant to be lived right? For me it was finding the right amount of everything and when to eat things. I cut way down on the carbs and sugar and dairy but didn’t eliminate. I try not to eat later in the evenings but sometimes it happens, no biggie. I always eat some protein when I eat carbs (this doesn’t mean I carry a turkey leg everywhere) but they have great snacks like dried edamame etc. you have to get creative. You aren’t going to stick with a food plan and lifestyle change if you aren’t enjoying what you are eating. My point is, I don’t think there is one magic diet out there for you but there is probably a combination of them that you can make work for your life. I wish you the very best, you are beautiful just as you are.

    ps. throw your scale away, judge by how your clothes feel 😉

  • Donovan April 25, 2017 at 5:57 am Reply

    Kris, I know your pain! As a food addict, not eating is the worst part of dieting. I topped out at 250 on a family vacation in 2012. I’ve tried this diet and that and ended up losing about 25 pounds and kept it off for a couple years. I managed to drop to 201 about 2 summers ago but then I let it go. It was so easy to go back to eating everything I wanted. This year I’ve dropped 45 pounds as of today, I weighed in the New Year at 220 and today I’m 175. Every night is a struggle, some people just don’t understand. My stomach is CONSTANTLY trying to convince my brain that going thru a drive thru isn’t so bad. Or I deserve a cheat meal today! I can honestly say this struggle is the toughest of my life. I don’t want one donut, I want a dozen. If I eat that one donut, it’ll turn into a dozen without a thought. I know and understand your struggle and all I can say is Stay Strong. Tell yourself you’ll eat that burger tomorrow but not today. Go to sleep and think of how you’ll feel about your good decisions in the morning. That’s helping me so far.

  • Irene HLl-Van Valkenburg April 25, 2017 at 1:49 pm Reply

    Plexus has been a huge help for me. Years of bad eating, hormone issues, yo yo dieting, starvation, and many other things. Got me no where but 300lbs at one point. Dropped 75 of it got pregnant. Then got stuck at 270 for about 3years ago. Cravings carbs and sugar and energy drinks was a life style.

    When I started to clean up my gut, I started seeing a difference in my carb,sugar and energy drinks cravings. Major decrease. That’s not to say that I don’t also have to have will power over and determination to eat right in a fast pace world. But my healthier gut has been a huge help! It’s been a slow but progressing journey. I didn’t put it on over night and it won’t come off that way either. Time and patients will be my friends and my worst enemy.

    Hang in there, you will get there!!

  • Heather Farek April 25, 2017 at 11:18 pm Reply

    Wow, I never saw you as overweight. I always thought you looked great. I have followed you on GH and GHI. I have struggled with weight since I was younger. I really noticed my problem when I was in my early twenties. I was a size 16. I was also diagnosed with thyroid problems and had to have it zapped with radiation which caused me to gain more weight. I heard about a diet that everyone tried called HCG where you eat 600 calories a day and inject hcg into your stomach. It worked great. I lost 50 lbs but that didn’t last long because I got pregnant with my daughter. Actually all of the women on the hcg program that I was on pretty much got pregnant. Now my daughter is 5 and I am struggling with weight. I am currently on Weight Watchers and I have lost 7 lbs. unfortunately I have been in the program for 10 weeks now. I love food. I mean real food. I work in a government position and all we do is eat sweets and junk. I have cut 40% of my junk eating down but still find it hard to pass it up completely.

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